How I Learned to Embrace My Rebellious Nature

How I Learned to Embrace My Rebellious Nature

I don’t believe that rebellion is something that you grow out of, get-over or rise above. I think that if you’re born with a rebellious spirit then it will always be a part of you, channeling forth from you in one way or another. I used to think that one day I would cure my inner rebellion but now I’ve learnt to love it as a valid and worthy part of who I am. Let’s get something clear I’m not talking about breaking the law when I talk about rebelling. I’m talking about forging your own path and choosing what’s right for you based on your own beliefs rather than someone else’s. There’s no doubt about it, rebels question rules. We don’t just accept them because they are there. We ask why. We prove rules wrong and we write our own. My rebellion used to be tainted with judgement, hatred and negativity. I looked at people who followed fashion, who got good grades, who were popular, who ‘conformed’ and I detested everything about them. I made it my duty to be everything they were not. This decision dictated everything about me, from my taste in music to my ambitions in life. Anything that I was envious of, I rebelled against and anything I disagreed with, I fought with. And when I say I fought, I mean I started my own internal war, taking ‘pleasure’ in pointing out how stupid, ugly or conformist people were. My rebellion cause to suffer unnecessarily, feel angry, treat people badly and make choices for the wrong reasons. It probably doesn’t surprise you that I...
How Having a Baby Actually Gave Me More Time

How Having a Baby Actually Gave Me More Time

How many times have you heard yourself say, “I’d love to do that but I just don’t have time”? I said it more times that I can count. I lived it. In fact my belief that I didn’t have time in my life for anything extra was so strong, that I actually started filling up my life with crap that wasn’t important just so I could maintain this ‘story’. But, I didn’t realize that I was doing it. I wanted to have more time for exercise, reading, leisure and my business but it just seemed too hard to get started. Instead I was spending hours shopping online, playing games on my phone and watching TV “to relax” rather than choosing activities that would nurture my soul or grow my business. While I was pregnant I ‘busied’ myself with collecting everything that we would need for the new addition and made excuses about lacking time to get out of going to yoga class or lap swimming and then I suffered through essential household tasks like cleaning and laundry because they felt like a waste of time. Then I gave birth to my daughter and due to feeding complications I was on a rigid schedule for pumping my breast milk. My time was suddenly ALL GONE.  For 12 weeks I did nothing but sleep, eat, care for my little one and get on the pump. Talk about not knowing what you’ve got til it’s gone! I thought about all the free time I’d had access to before having a baby and how little I’d achieved and I was determined to use...