How Do You Play the Game?
It’s far from unusual for any college student about to graduate to be a bit apprehensive about what their future holds. Questions of whether they’ll be able to find a job, be able to compete with those seeking similar positions, and be able to sustain themselves in the “real world” all start to creep up when the reality of graduation starts sink in. It didn’t particularly help in my case that I was graduating in 2009 with one of the worst outlooks for finding jobs among graduates on top of the fact that I was getting my degree in, of all things, music.
I never thought I’d have these feelings of apprehension though. After all, I grew up knowing exactly what I wanted to do: Be a rockstar. The idea of having an ordinary job and simply “making a living” to “get by” used to make me sick to my stomach, that is at least until I graduated high school and realized that it’s a nice thing to be able to pay my own rent.
So naturally I did what any reasonable person would do, I compromised.
I knew I had the talent, and could do big things, but perhaps it would be better if I played it safe just in case. Something bold like packing up everything and moving out LA to pursue music would be much too risky and “imprudent” for someone as smart as myself. It would seem much wiser to stay where I was in Nashville, a nice enough music city where all my friends and fellow musicians were, and simply get a paying job while I enjoy making music when I could on the side. Then one day, if I was “lucky,” my talent would land me in the right position and I would make it big. (If only I say enough prayers)
The “dream killer” strikes
All was well enough for a period of time after graduation. I did get a job I actually enjoyed, I made some music on the side, and I was able to “get by.”
Then, to my horror, after a year or so I found myself struck with the affliction that kills more dreams and potential than anything else I know of; I got “comfortable.”
Fortunately I recognized what was happening. I consider myself extremely blessed this happened while I was young as opposed to 20 years down the road and then having to endure a mid-life crisis regretting a life of wasted potential. I quickly sought to remedy the situation by starting an in-depth journey into personal growth and self reflection.
The one shift that changed everything
That period of personal development lead to many changes in thinking, but the particular one I look back on as being the “change that brought about all other changes” was realizing I was approaching life the same way perhaps 95% (give or take) of the population does, I was playing “not to lose” rather than “playing to win.”
As soon as I realized that distinction, I knew that any life played on defense could never lead to victory. I would have to consciously decide to pro-actively go after what I wanted and “make” things happen rather than sitting back hoping things would happen. I took personal responsibility for my life and decided I was either going to “make it big or die trying.”
That may sound bold or fearless, but I assure you there was and is still plenty of fear.
It was just that being uncomfortable or trying and failing was no longer the thing I feared most. Rather regret, disappointment, and unfulfilled potential started to scare me a whole lot more. I knew the suffering I would endure of never seeing my true potential actualized would be worse than any failure. I also knew how much this world suffers when anyonedoesn’t share their incredible gifts and talents they have with others out of fear, and I couldn’t bear to hold myself back thereby robbing others in this world of many gifts.
As Jim Rohn says: “We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment.”
After making this shift to play to win, all my thoughts naturally started to change.
Playing not to lose: What if I waste my time? What if I screw up? What if people see me fail? Etc.
Playing to win: If I screw up, what can I learn? I’ll be smarter for my mistakes. Everyone screws up. It’s never a waste of time if I learn something from it. Etc.
Playing not to lose when thinking about moving to LA and pursuing music: The traffic is bad in LA. There’s too much competition. It’s expensive. The people there aren’t friendly. Etc.
Playing to win when thinking about moving to LA: I can spend time listening to audiobooks in traffic. It’s so big there is plenty of opportunity to go around for talented people like myself. I can find plenty of ways to make ends meet. There are millions of people there so I can easily find great friends and business partners. Etc.
This simple change in thinking made the decision to move out to LA and live a life on my terms so stupidly obvious, I almost feel bad for not having seen the light sooner. Plus there was no “forcing” myself to “think positive” which rarely works. And after living in LA for a little while now, I can say that every single fear I had was unfounded and it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.
I will note however, the decision to “compromise” for a period of time was the right one. It was actually necessary for me to go through that period not knowing what I wanted in my life or what I was going to do in order to start the journey of self discovery. Those feelings of “not knowing” are the greatest gift we can have when they prompt us to actively seek answers to the deeper questions about our lives and life in general.
It’s not whether you win or lose
All the talk of “how to play the game” or “how” to do anything always comes second to me of a greater question. That is “why?” Why do I play the game at all?
The most powerful motivator we have, which goes beyond simple pain (losing) and pleasure (winning), is that of love. Nothing will move a person or create change more powerfully than love, and when love is the reason why you play the game, you’ll discover you can never win or lose, and therefore worrying about either is trivial.
It’s only when you decide to play the game well because of love can you create a true change in yourself. And that change makes all of us the winner.
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